Pre-partum depression?

Call it hormones, but I have felt crummy all day. What really got me though was when I was reading some old notes from high school tonight. The ones an old friend and I passed. Oh they were pleasant before I began dating Travis. But once I started dating Travis, we became increasingly mean to each other. I blame Travis for his jealousy, of course, but I know that isn't the full truth. I am to blame as well because TJ was a true friend and I snubbed him. I did like him, and though he wanted to be more than friends, I couldn't see past him being a little on the geeky side. That or, like I did to the Husband when he asked me out, I feared that dating my best friend would ultimately ruin the friendship. In TJ's case I ruined it anyway. If I had continued to snub the Husband that way too, it would have ended our friendship as well. I realized something as I was reading those old notes: my husband is very similar to my old friend in so many ways. You know how Earl has his karma list? Well, at the top of mine is TJ. I want to get in contact with him somehow and apologize to him for how I treated him and how I felt back then. I was a fool for dealing with Travis and his jealousy (among other things) but I was an even bigger fool for treating a true friend the way I did. I was such a bitch in high school.

Anyone else wish they could redo high school?